Boyfriends

I try my damn hardest to make sense of my man. He doesn't want me talking to other guys but its okay for him to talk to other girls. I am not allowed to see, talk to, think, speak, pretty much anything that has to do with any of my ex's its forbidden but yet he can keep in contact with all of his. Doesn't quite make any sense to me. Than there's his new thing. Where its okay for him to go to bars and get drink and completely not talk to me all night but i am not allowed to even think of going to a party with some of my girlfriends. If i dont txt him back or answer his calls right away than i'm doing something and he's suspicious even though i'm not doing anything out of the ordenary. First off though i should've told you that my boyfriend is a linemen. No not a football kind of a linemen but powerlines linemen. So he is constantly gone from home traveling for work. Which always makes my biggest worry that he is going to find some other girl while he's gone and cheat on me or break up with me for her. Now i understand that i should trust him but simplest thing is he's a guy. Yes some of them can be trusted but when it comes to their 2 types of brain they aren't always trustworthy. I am trying my hardest to get why the rules only apply to me and not him but i dont think i ever will. I am now to the point where i'm just angry all the time because he can do what he wants but i must sit at home doing nothing. I really wish i could understand him!